Oh I Think You Lost This...

Nowadays it seems like girls and boys are getting busy at younger ages. This year I noticed there are a couple girls in the Freshman class that are pregnant. It's ridiculous to see girls that are 14 and 15 years old are having babies, not even thinking of their future. Elliott told me about a girl that is pregnant in one of his classes, and how she is going to be due pretty soon because she's huge. He told me about one day in class earlier in the year, when she was looking at her UltraSound pictures in the middle of class. She said she didn't want anyone knowing about her pregnancy, and yet she was looking at the private pictures in front of everyone. At this age, pregnancy isn't something you want to flaunt. I personally don't wanna see a knocked up preteen in a tight spaghetti-strap tanktop with her planet of a belly sticking out. It's just disturbing. I don't understand how unintelligent a young couple can be to manage to get pregnant. First of all, I don't think kids that young should be having sex in the first place, but if you're gonna put on a damn condom or something! Honestly.

Virginity and sex seems to be a booming topic for my grade and other teens my age. I know plenty of people who have had sex my age, and sometimes it surprises me. When I hear things in the hallway of what so and so did with someone else, I usually listen to the juicy gossip at first but hope it isn't true. A couple of my girl friends have had sex, but only with their boyfriend that they love and have been dating for a while. Slowly all of my friends and having long, loving relationships and "becoming women" while I'm stuck here in the shadows. Yeah yeah, I'm still a virgin. I haven't been in a serious relationship for a while, and I don't want to have sex for the first time with someone that I don't even love. Now that I'm in a relationship, I'm waiting until the time is right, and making sure that I love Elliott and he loves me before I even think about taking that big step with him.

So there. I came out and said that I'm a virgin. For all of you jerks that say that I'm not a virgin, and had sex last year with a certain someone who plays basketball, you're wrong. I'm tired of hearing things about me that aren't true, and its time to set the record straight. You clearly don't know me as a friend or even a person, so just keep your rumors to yourself. [<3]

Song of the Day -- I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For - U2

Long day, don't really feel like saying too much other than this song is good.. I know I have my awesome 4 followers but anyone feel free to comment [<3]>

PS.. Wow awesome I just realized there's Spanish (or whatever language) subtitles at the bottom. Oh well.

Song of the Day -- True to Me

I've loved this song ever since I heard it for the first time about a few months ago. I'm sure it's pretty old but it never gets old. If you want to see the lyrics, go to this video on YouTube or simply search it on Google. I'm always a sucker for a love story written in songs, and this is cute and different. I love how Metro Station mixes in sexual references into their lyrics, it really spices it up a bit. Metro Station has wicked beats and different sounds going in every song, none of them sound the same. This song always puts me in a good mood, same goes for most Metro Station songs. Anyone feel the same?

Song of the Day -- Crash Into Me

One of the best songs I've heard, but not in a long time. This song speaks to me, and every time I listen to it it drags me in that much deeper. Something about the rhythm, tone and his voice keeps my attention. Not to mention the lyrics. The song touches me because I can relate to it. I hate to admit it to the whole world ((or to the 6 people that have ever read this blog)) that unfortunately I'm falling head of heels for my guy..

I say unfortunately because I don't know if I want to.. When it comes to relationships I'm always a little hesitant because I've been screwed over one too many times. I'm always afraid a guy will walk out on me, just as I start to really care for him. I know there are plenty of girls out there that are in the same boat. The only reason I hesitate with Elliott is because we aren't officially dating, as I said in an earlier post. I don't understand his reasoning for us not being official, and that scares me a little. I don't want to be a girl on the side, I want to be with him. But anyway, enough of the mushy stuff.

This song is really great because it isn't like other love songs. The different instruments and how they are played really grab my attention, and I love it. The singers voice is amazing too. I think what makes me love this song the most is the lyrics, because they are amazing. I don't know if this was professionally written or if it was by the guys in the band, but man I love them. I'm truly amazed by the lyrics of a lot of songs today, and how they word things. I don't think I could ever write lyrics to songs, because first of all I can't rhyme and the things I would say would sounds stupid. I can't even explain how some songs' lyrics make me go crazy because they are so awesome. This is definitely one of these songs.... <3

Change Is Coming

As hopefully most of you know, Barack Obama is now our first african-american president. I probably should've written about him closer to the election and inaguration, but I guess I kind of put it out of my mind.

When the inaguration was taking place, I was at school. I really wish I would've been able to see what was happening in Washington the whole day, because this event went down in history. Luckly, when Obama and Biden were about to take office, I was in my government class. I have government with Coach White, one of the best teachers I've had. I'm not sure what makes him a good teacher, but I'm able to stay focused and actually learn for the whole class period because he makes it so interesting. Anyways, he's obviously big into politics, and said we were going to watch as much of the inagural process as we could. We watched CNN I think it was, and we saw different views of the millions of people in Washington D.C.. It was amazing to see America come together like we did that day to witness such a life changing event in our history. We watched the prayer take place, WHICH I HATE, Aretha Franklin sing, and the orchestra thing play the song they composed for this event. (I hated the prayer because it's CLEARLY a violation of church and state, which Coach White reminded us about 4 times during the inaguration). I thought the songs were great, and they made the experience that much better.

We got to see Biden and Obama be sworn in, which was cool. I knew right as Obama messed up the words that he was going to get a lot of greif for it, but hey if I was up there in front of that many people I'm sure I would mess up a couple words =] We also got the chance to see Obama's inagural address or whatever it was called, which was amazing. As he started his speech I immediately got goosebumps and the chills. I thought the speech was very well written, and he delivered it with great success. I don't think I would've changed anything about it.

During the election, I was for McCain. I didn't like Obama's ideals at first, but now I've changed my mind. I think Obama has a good head on his shoulders, and knows what he wants to accomplish during his presidency. Now, its just a matter of whether or not he follows through with those ideals. For all of you who did not support Obama during the election, and are still against him now, you need to wake up. Clearly McCain didn't win. Obama is now the president, and there's nothing to do about it. It's time to stop crabbing about the election, and get used to the fact that yes, we do have an Democratic African-American president, and yes he's here for 4 years. I'm sticking with the classic saying, "If you can't beat 'em, join 'em." And you should too.

Decisions

The farther along senior year goes, the more decisions I have been having to make. Everyone my age is experiencing this same thing as well. I've been thinking about college and what I'd like to do in the future since about sophomore year, and as time goes on, the pressure keeps building and building. There are so many things I have to consider when looking at colleges, and when deciding where to apply.

The colleges I applied to are only Iowa State University and the University of Northern Iowa. I felt these two colleges had what I am looking for. I visit Mount Mercy as well, but their campus and majors didn't interest me as much as the other schools. During this past summer, before I applied, I visited ISU before UNI. I stayed at the schools during the past few summers for volleyball camps, but this was my first ever college visit, so I didn't know what to expect. I was really nervous, because I thought I would stick out like a sore thumb. The more I thought about it, duh I'm not going to be the only one visiting, and the kids are gonna be just as nervous as I am. As we arrived I looked around at the campus. I was scared because it seemed like it was never ending. This scared me a little. Once I got there, we signed in at a huge building and waited to take a tour with a dozen other applicants and their parents. As we broke off from the tour group, my parents took me around and showed me other places. I thought to myself, this campus isn't that big, I don't think it'd be too bad. When I got home I saw a map and realized we were only walking in about 1/4 of the campus. Once again I was back to being intimidated by the big campus.

My visit at UNI went a lot better. I love their campus because it's a lot smaller, and suits me well. I like the campus a lot, because it's pretty open but still small. Unfortunately though, ISU has the better academic program for what I want to major in: Interior or Architectural Design. So basically if I want a good, solid career, I need to go to Iowa State.

The decision now is if I want to stay in CR for a year and get some of my Gen Eds taken care of while at home, and then go to Iowa State for the rest of college, or if I want to just go straight to Iowa State. My parents say they are behind me whichever one I choose, but I think they really want me to just leave and get out there and go to Iowa State without any hesitations. I personally really want to stay home for another year, because most of my friends are staying here for at least a year or two before they leave the city. I hate to admit it, but Elliott does have an influence on where I go. If we stay together, I'd really like to be here another year with him. Of course my parents don't like the idea of that. It's really going to be a hard decision when I have to actually sit down with my parents and decide.

How Lame Are My Friends.

Title: Jenny Takes A Tumble

Yes, unfortunately these are my friends. I'm glad to say I wasn't there, and didn't partake in any of this madness, but unfortunately I kind of wish I was. I hate to admit it, but we are this goofy on a regular basis, but you know, who cares! I love them.