And Th-Th-Th-That Don't Kill Me

Everyone says "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me." or whatever the quote is. I think I'm basically the opposite. I'm a pretty tough cookie when it comes to pain, but when people talk about me or say something mean to my face, I get pretty upset. Either I cry, or I get really pissed. I don't really know what is wrong with me. All my friends say, "It doesn't matter what people say about you." but I don't really believe them. I take what people say about me or to me to heart. I think that goes along with my low self esteem or whatever it is. I need to work on that a bit.

I'm not saying people talk crap about me or anything, because I'm a good person for the most part. I'm contradicting myself now when I say talking crap is a bad thing, because I just said in my last post that I like talking about people, if it's true of course. I'm also contradicting myself when I say it shouldn't matter what people say about you. I tell myself that all the time, but it still matters to me no matter what. You should do what you want to do, wear what you want to wear, say what you want to say, (to a certain extent of course).

All of this reminds me of the song "Stronger" by Kanye West. I'm sure that'll always be a good song. It really connects well with what I'm saying in this post. Should I post a video or link? Of course I should!

Did You Hear...

I think rumors and the greatest, and the worst, things in teenagers lives today (including mine). I might as well start out with pointing out the cons of rumors. In high school, rumor starting and smack-talking is a common activity for most students. Whether they know it or not, every kid in their high school career have, or will, talk bad about someone behind their back. It's just bound to happen.

At my school, rumors fly around every day as if this is Hollywood or something. I'm pretty sure I hear something bad about someone at least once a day. Every day. Most of the time the rumors about people who aren't necessarily your friends, just more of aquaintences (sp? damn i don't know how to spell). I think the gossip is even juicier if it isn't about your friend, because you don't really mind spreading the rumor or talking about them as much as if it was your best friend people were talking about.

I'll probably sound like a terrible person for saying this, but I think gossip and rumors are fun. I'm not the type of person who starts rumors, no not at all, but I do like to hear them, and talk to people about it who already know about it. I have a few friends who I can trust won't tell anyone, but then again I have a couple friends who would tell a secret in a heartbeat. I know I can trust my few friends when I hear gossip about people, and what we say never leaves our little group. Not gonna lie, we are probably somehow contributing to the gossip spreading the administration is trying to put a stop to, but everyone does it!

I know, just because everyone else is doing it doesn't make it right. No, I wouldn't jump off a bridge if everyone else did it.

I think the most smack-talking is my group is done when we are at one of our houses, alone. We don't start rumors, we only talk bad about bad people. To elaborate on that, we only say things that are true about people, which are bad mostly. If Stacie* slept with 14 guys, we talk about it because it's a true fact, we aren't just randomly making that up just because we don't like Stacie. So in our minds, we aren't really doing anything harmful, just stating the truth.

*not real name of friend

First Impressions

Sometimes, first impressions of people are the worst. I don't think I can think of a situation in which I didn't like the person at first, and then not liked them once I got to know them. Okay, I take that back. I can think of a couple times. But what I'm trying to get at is, people aren't necessarily bad people even if you get a bad first impression.

One time there was a girl (we'll call her Bethany) one of my best friends (and we'll call her Katherine) was friends with, and Katherine really wanted me to meet her. Bethany went to another school, and I didn't know many girls from there. I had heard they were all mean and psycho, so I wasn't really too anxious to meet her. I kept telling Katherine I didn't want Bethany to hang out with us, being the stubborn person I am. Eventually, Katherine went ahead behind my back and invite Bethany to my house once. So she came over and guess what! Sure enough she's the nicest person ever.

That really made me mad. I didn't understand why I had been so wrong about her, when I was sure she was some mean crazy bitch from down the street. All in all I'm really glad I'm friends with her, and it has made me think twice when judging people before I meet them. My friendship with Bethany brought on new relationships with new people, which is really great. It is always nice to meet new people and become friends with people from other schools.

What I'm trying to get at is the classic quote, "Don't judge a book by its cover." Some people are secretly nice, others, not so much. Some people are mean on the inside, but most aren't. Man I sound like a mom or an elementary school teacher or somthing. Now kids, that's your lesson for the day.

Rotation

So as some of you may know, Cute Is What We Aimed For released a new CD called Rotation on June 24th, 2008.

Compared to their first album, The Same Old Blood Rush With A New Touch, Rotation brings a completely new sound to CIWWAF fans all across America. As noted on SmartPunk.com, the success of the first album was greated than what the boys expected. TSOBRWANT "spent countless months on the Billboard Top 200 Charts and quietly sold over 210,000 records...". The article goes on to say how the success of the first album forced the group to mature quickly. The new maturity shows greatly throughout every part of this new album.

I personally enjoy this album a lot, but I don't know if I enjoy it as much as I enjoyed the first album when it first came out. The first album brought a new form of music to my life, and I had 'discovered' the band on my own through PureVolume. Many of my friends had never heard of them, and to this day most of them still don't. I think it'd be interesting to blog with others about the music not everyone listens to -- maybe even creating publicity for them.

I definitely notice the change in tone and mood in the music, and the maturity in the lyrics. Rotation brings a more mellow and diverse album of songs, with most of TSOBRWANT's songs being more upbeat.

The main thing I like best about CIWWAF's albums is the creativity in the lyrics. The word usage and clever phrases are what catch my eye the most. I don't think I've listened to many bands with lyrical creativity like these guys. To be honest, I'm glad they didn't have insanely amazing success with their first album, like Fall Out Boy or Britney Spears would. I'm a fan of many bands like CIWWAF: successful, but still not recognized by all of the nation. I'm always afraid success can corrupt bands, forming into the mold of how society wants them to sound. CIWWAF has a very unique sound, and I want it to stay that way for albums to come.

For more info cliiickk.

Viewer Discretion Advised

--Follow-up to "Drivers Ed"--


Does anyone have road rage? I know I do! This is something I really need to get under control. As many people say (or at least I think they do), road rage definitely increases your chance of getting in an accident.



I think its funny how I have roadrage when it comes to any annoying driver on the road. If I don't know who the person is, I will get mad at them if they do anything remotely wrong when driving. Even if it isn't wrong, but it isn't what I want them to do, I get mad.

I'm not even the same person when I drive! I'm really nice in person, or at least I hope I am, but when I drive I'm anxious and antsy and easily irritated. Ugh I need to work on that!!

Hello, My Name Is...

In my life, meeting new people and/or making new friends are some of the most awkward times ever. When everyone was in elementary school, making friends was easy because no one cared what anyone thought of them, they were just themselves. One minute two kids are complete strangers, the next, they are playing on the swings as if they've been best friends forever. I was just like every other person in elementary school, making new friends every day.

I think self esteem and confidence play a huge role when it comes to making new friends. When middle school rolled around I started to become more and more self-concious, like many other girls and guys at my age. Puberty starts to hit and everyone has their "awkward phase" at some point. 8th grade was about the time I began to see myself in a different light than I used to. I started comparing my looks to the others around me, wishing I had the same certain features they did. I believe this self-conciousness took a toll on my willingness to branch out and meet new friends, or open up to a relationship.

Middle school was a big step from elementary school. Middle school was the time where girls and guys started to "like" each other, and the "dating" had begun. We saw ourselves as more mature, mature enough to have a two or three week relationship with someone you never saw anywhere but school. When dating begins, drama follows closely behind. Cliques and groups of friends slowly began forming around the end of middle school.

In high school, I became more and more self concious. I knew how easily rumors can start and spread, so I felt like every day as I walked down the hall everyone was watching my every move-- almost judging me, if you will. I almost felt as if I had to fit the perfect description of a typical high school student for others to like me. Yeah, I still had my friends from Middle School, but everyone wants to branch out in high school. Of course, being the young teenage girl that I was, I especially wanted to meet guys. Looking around at other girls, I wasn’t the skinniest girl ever, which made me even more self conscious. I wanted boys to like me, but I thought they wouldn't unless I was perfect.

All of these things kept adding up, and I became the shyest I've ever been my whole life. In person, I hardly ever talk to people I'm not close friends with, afraid they'll think I'm stupid or annoying. But on the phone or on the computer, I'm not shy at all. One of these days I've got to train myself to be a more outgoing person, before I seclude myself from all of society.

Drivers Ed

You want to know one thing that really erks me? Well first of all how the hell you spell erk, but that is beside the point. BAD DRIVERS. Ahh bad drivers are some of the most irritating things ever!! To me anyways.

Let me get this out of the way and say that I've been in two accidents in my life, all within one month. I'm paranoid when it comes to speeding or bad driving, in fear someone will get hurt or get me into another accident. I would say I'm a fairly safe driver, and nowadays take even more precautions to make sure I'm a good driver.

I think one of the most annoying things is a slow driver. I'm not a speedy driver, but when you're late for work and you've got grandmammy cruisin' along going 10 under the speed limit in front of you... That's a little irritating. Plus, I never have the nerve to pass people, because I'm scared to get pulled over for speeding.

Another thing that irritates me are crazy drivers. By crazy drivers I mean, ridign around with 6 friends in the backseat listening to music really loud. Everyone's jumping around all over, the driver is dancing in their seat, and not even remotely focused on the road. A couple of my friends are crazy drivers, and I absolutely hate driving with them. One of my friends, who I'll call Veronica, is one of these bad drivers. She's one of my best friends, but man when she's driving a car full of girls, things can get a little wild. I remember her following me to my house, with her and another one of my friends with her, and watching her in my rearview mirror swerve back and forth on the road just being stupid.

Ohh man was I irritated. Veronica's never been in a car accident, so I don't think the reality of how easy your life be taken away has quite hit her yet. I've told her to slow down or to stop texting while I'm driving with her, and she gets a little irritated with me, but she stops. I'm not just concerned with my safety, but hers too. Also, if I'm riding with a bunch of friends, sometimes I'm the only one who wears a seatbelt!

I don't think there's a way to really reach people on how important safe driving is. There's always something that hits home for everyone, but I guess that is too much of a bother for everyone to find.

Parental Control

I think today I'm gonna blab about family. Can't live with 'em, can't live without em'. I don't even know where to start because there's so much to say about them. I do know one thing for sure though, my family's there for me no matter what. Even though we disagree sometimes, I'm pretty sure my parents will back me up when it comes to big decisions in my life, unless it's a stupid one. Also I think most people will agree with me when it comes to their family.


Today, in my eyes there are two or three different kinds of parents. There are those that are completely over the top, insanely strict. They want to protect their little babies from every little speck of danger in the world today. Gahhh sometimes it seems like my parents are like that at times. Yeah, yeah, they mean well, but sometimes there's a point in life where they've just gotta let go a little bit. If you protect your kids from everything, once they get to college they are basically screwed. They are gonna be scared to go outside their dorm in fear they will trip on the sidewalk and fall and get their eye poked out with a stick that is magically standing on end. Also sometimes these parents make their children call or text them every 5 seconds to know where they are or if they are safe. My parents do this most of the time. For those of you that don't have parents like this, you are lucky cause it's so insanely not fair and annoying.

On the other extreme, there are the parents that don't give a rat's behind about what their kids do or where they go. Sometimes this is a bit dangerous. I know a lot of parents today that don't care if their kids go to parties and drink when underaged, as long as they stay the night or don't try to drive. Yeah if you have parents who are really protective, the "wild" side may seem awesomely fun, but I don't think it's all it's cracked up to be.

Annnddd then there are the parents right in the middle. I don't know of too many parents who are like this, but whatever. My "ideal parent" if I had to describe would be as follows. They let their kids stay out as late as they want, as long as the parents know where they are at or who they are with. As long as their kid is trustworthy and doesn't get into trouble, I think protective parents should loosen the reins a tad. These "ideal parents" don't necessarily have to allow their kids to drink, because, of course, it is illegal, but they shouldn't be as uptight as, say, my parents are.

When I read over this entry, I start to think this post is basically a place for me to vent about my recent frustration with my own parents. As you may have noticed, I think my parents are a little on the over-protective side. I have a feeling this post won't change their mind, (not that I'm trying to do that). I know my parents mean well when they are over-protective, but I think it is about time I have a little more freedom and they have a little more faith in me. I'm not a bad person, believe me! I could be out drinking or spray painting on the police station or something stupid right now, but am I?! No. I'm blogging. Please tell me someone is in this position too, and agrees with me!

So Now What?

This is my first post! Well, my second post but this one I'm actually getting down to business. So, a blog titled "Pancakes and Waffles"? No, it isn't about breakfast, unfortunately. Honestly I just couldn't think of a legit title, and this is what I came up with.


I haven't quite figured out just what I'm going to blog about. I'm thinking somewhere along the lines of music, but believe me, I'm no Hollywood A-List Critic. I don't listen or like to every genre of music, so it could get a little boring. I need something interesting, with a little kick.
I'm hoping I don't have to stick with one topic, I just want to talk about whatever it is I want to talk about that day. Maybe after blabbing for a while I come up with one or two awesomely amazing topics to write about. Hopefully?!

Welcome to Myself!

First blog post ever!
I'm so proud of myself :)
That's about it for now.