Song of the Day -- Go Hard Or Go Home

Its game time now. Basketball season is almost over, and hopefully we make it to state this year! Today is the last game of the season, and we play Dubuque Wahlert. The sophmores are doing well this year, and so are ours, so I have a feeling it'll be a really good game. I can't believe the season is almost over, because it feels like it just started. I feel like it's been a really great season to end on, it being my senior year and all. I've been to as many games as I could make it to, and they've all been so fun. Hopefully there's more to come [<3]

Song of the Day -- Summer Sunshine

I'm starting to think winter should be done right abouuttt... Now. I'm getting sick of all this nasty snow and slush all over, getting my car all dirty. Even though this song is pretty old, I heard it for the first time during the summer a couple years ago. This and other songs remind me of the warm summer nights, hanging out with my friends and just having a good time. I'm a senior this year, so I'm going to have a longer summer than years before. Before I go away to college, I want to have the summer of a lifetime. I want to hang out with my friends and boyfriend, and create memories that'll last forever. There's obviously no gurantees to that, but I'm pretty sure it'll happen.

The past summers I have are probably some of the most memorable moments in my life. Even though some of the moments aren't good ones, I still remember so much of what has happened the past few years. This summer will be great too. I've made new friends, actually have a boyfriend to spend time with, and I have my full license (long story). I'm hoping my parents will let up on the rules a little bit this summer, since it'll be my last one in high school. One of my favorite things to do in summer is lay on my driveway at night and look at all the stars. My house is perfect for this because we live out in the country, sort of. I sit out there and think about a lot of things.. Sometimes I think about if there are other people somewhere in the world looking at the same stars I am. There's so many different worlds and people out there that I don't know about, and it's crazy to think about what all I'm missing out on.

I think I do some of my deepest thinking in the summer too. I always reflect on the past year, and think about what is coming in the future. This summer I'll have a lot to think about, with college coming up. It's going to be hard to leave my friends, most of who are staying here in CR. It's also going to be a tough decision figuring out what Elliott and I are going to do. I've been avoiding as much as I can, but sooner or later we are going to have to sit down and talk about what we are going to do about our relationship in the future. As much as I hate to think about it, I'm going to be 2 hours away at college while he's here still in high school. We're going to have to think about if we can stick together, and work through this long distance relationship, and know we can trust each other. If we can't we're going to have to split up, knowing that our decision is for the best. Lately we've been hinting at the subject, and I think we are probably going to salvage our relationship and stand the distance. Although this can change over the next few months, I'm hoping it doesn't. This summer will be interesting. [<3]

Song of the Day -- Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day everyone =] Well a day late I guess.. For once I actually have a boyfriend on Valentines Day, which is nice for a change. Valentine's Day is a whole day to express your love for your significant other, and I love it!

This Valentine's Day, Elliott and I went out to dinner with my friend and her boyfriend to Elmcrest, which was a lot of fun. We got all dressed up lookin all cute and had a fancy quiet dinner. After that, we went to the move He's Just Not That Into You (chick flick I know). Anndd after that we split off and did our own thing. It was a lot of fun to get out for once, rather than being stuck inside watching a movie like we usually do. So.. We went out, but we.. still saw a movie? Hmm not much change. Oh well. You get the point. It's nice to have a night focused on a relationship, and hopefully cherishing that relationship you have.

And for those that don't have a significant other... Valentine's Day usually sucks. Well it did for me in past years, so I'm guessing it's still the same. It's basically a day to celebrate how alone you are and how lame single life is, and while couples go out together you're at home by yourself eating a pint of Ben & Jerry's while watching The Notebook with your dog. For all of you in this situation, love will come to you someday =]

Happy Valentine's Day everyone [<3]

Why Blog?

So what's up with this blogging thing? Why do we blog in the first place? Well first of all, I kind of have to. At first I didn't like to blog. I thought it was pointless and stupid, and I always put it off and thought I would do it later. I never did. But lately I've started to actually like blogging, and expressing my 'writing' over the internet.

So why do I like to blog? One, I get to type out my happiness, frustration, sadness, or whatever emotion I'm experiencing that day, through it. I know I'm no famous person, and have a million people visit my page routinely, and I'm okay with that. At this point, I don't care if people like, or even read what I have to say, I'm just putting it out there for my own purposes. For example, if you are told a really really big secret, and you aren't supposed to tell someone, you get this growing anxiousness in the pit of your stomach. You have to tell someone. Telling someone this secret, is almost like me telling, well no one, how I feel. I'll be honest and say that no one is going to want to sit down with me and listen to everything that happened to me that day, and why I am feeling the way I am. Of course I don't do this on my blog, but it's a way for me to cope with how I am feeling. Blogging my feelings is like a big sigh of relief some days.

Another reason I blog is to share stories and personal experiences. I know many don't read my blog, and I think that is why I feel so comfortable showing my feelings and sharing experiences in my posts. A way I show my feelings is through some stories I tell on my posts, and now recently, through my songs I choose for Song of the Day. I'm not saying I'm Mother Goose and I'm telling ridiculous stories with hidden morals in them, hoping that people follow in my footsteps. No way. I don't expect people to listen or like what I have to say, and the stories that I share, but I enjoy doing it.

Which brings me to my last reason why I blog. I do it, because I want to. I like to. It makes me happy knowing that my thoughts and my feelings are out there, for everyone to see. Maybe a post of mine could help someone through a hard time, or even just make their day a little bit better, knowing they aren't the only one going through something they may be experiencing. I think it's so cool that I have my own website, completely mine. I didn't have anyone else help me, I did everything on my own. It's almost like a self-esteem booster or something. On my blog, I can talk to anyone. It just amazes me that this one website can be seen all over the world. There's no boundaries, (kind of) and no one is really telling me what to say, or what to think. Not everyone has their own website where they can talk to the world. I think that's just about the coolest thing ever.

Song of the Day -- Practice Makes Perfect

Another Cute Is What We Aim For song.. The video is from YouTube, but the song title on the video is wrong.. It's Practice Makes Perfect. Once again, another great song produced from the Rotation album released in 2008. Hope you enjoy [<3]

Song of the Day -- Time

One of the best songs I've heard in a long time. Cute Is What We Aim For is one of my favorite bands, because of the lyrics and diversity in each of their songs. I said in one of my first posts on this blog that CIWWAF shows a whole new side of their band with this new CD, Rotation. Each of the songs are very different, including this one. I was disappointed at first when I was flipping through their songs when I first got the CD, hoping for a slower song. Time is the last song on the CD, and when I heard it, I immediately fell in love.

I'd definitely recommend this CD to anyone who doesn't generally like main-stream bands, and is always looking for new sound. Check them out on MySpace. [<3]

WPA

Its only a matter of time before the girls of Kennedy High School start going crazy thinking about WPA. For all of you that don't know what this is, WPA stands for Women Pay All. It's a dance. WPA is coming up in the beginning of March, and the girls have to ask the guys this time. We also pay for the tickets, the dinner, and the pictures. At the rate this is going, I need to start saving my money now.

At the beginning of the year, before I had even met Elliott, I came up with this brilliant idea of how I wanted to ask my date to WPA. I had no idea who I wanted to ask, but it would be perfect if he happened to play basketball. When I started dating Elliott, this idea became perfect because basketball is his life. So I went out and bought a mini basketball, some rhinestones, and some glue. My plan was to write WPA? in big letters in rhinestones on the ball, and somehow surprise him with it. About a week ago, I started putting my plan together. I made the ball perfectly, and I couldn't wait to give it to him. I decided I was going to give it to his 4th hour teacher, and somehow have his teacher surprise him with it in the middle of class. I thought there was no point in officially asking him, because I assumed we were going together anyway, but my plan was so awesome I couldn't pass it up. So I planned to give the ball to him this past Tuesday. Everything went perfect, and he told me he loved the ball and the idea was really great. But he didn't respond to my question. I let it slide, hoping maybe he would somehow surprise me with a "yes" later in the day.

School got out, and still no response. I was pretty impatient, so I asked him if he was gonna respond. He said he didn't know what to do, because he didn't like dances. He says he's an awkward dancer, and doesn't want to embarrass him or myself. Elliott stands at a whopping 6'6'', so saying he's awkward may not be an exaggeration. He's a basketball player, so he's not that awkward, but I still can't picture him dancing. I was shocked by his response. How could he be so selfish?! This is my dance, and it's my last WPA because I'm a senior. I do everything for him ((that's a whole other story)) and he can't sacrifice one night to make me happy.. I started to get upset. He explained why he was hesitating, and asked me if I could teach him to dance. I agreed, hoping maybe teaching him would encourage him to come to WPA with me.

So tomorrow will be our dance lesson day. After the Varsity basketball game, Elliott will come over and I'll attempt to teach him to dance. I'm not a fantastic dancer myself, but I'll have to teach him what I know. I'm kind of nervous because I don't know how to teach a guy to dance. This would be a lot easier if I was trying to teach a girl. I'm also really hoping this convinces him to go, because I don't want to fight about it.

I'll update on how it goes later [<3]>

Oh I Think You Lost This...

Nowadays it seems like girls and boys are getting busy at younger ages. This year I noticed there are a couple girls in the Freshman class that are pregnant. It's ridiculous to see girls that are 14 and 15 years old are having babies, not even thinking of their future. Elliott told me about a girl that is pregnant in one of his classes, and how she is going to be due pretty soon because she's huge. He told me about one day in class earlier in the year, when she was looking at her UltraSound pictures in the middle of class. She said she didn't want anyone knowing about her pregnancy, and yet she was looking at the private pictures in front of everyone. At this age, pregnancy isn't something you want to flaunt. I personally don't wanna see a knocked up preteen in a tight spaghetti-strap tanktop with her planet of a belly sticking out. It's just disturbing. I don't understand how unintelligent a young couple can be to manage to get pregnant. First of all, I don't think kids that young should be having sex in the first place, but if you're gonna put on a damn condom or something! Honestly.

Virginity and sex seems to be a booming topic for my grade and other teens my age. I know plenty of people who have had sex my age, and sometimes it surprises me. When I hear things in the hallway of what so and so did with someone else, I usually listen to the juicy gossip at first but hope it isn't true. A couple of my girl friends have had sex, but only with their boyfriend that they love and have been dating for a while. Slowly all of my friends and having long, loving relationships and "becoming women" while I'm stuck here in the shadows. Yeah yeah, I'm still a virgin. I haven't been in a serious relationship for a while, and I don't want to have sex for the first time with someone that I don't even love. Now that I'm in a relationship, I'm waiting until the time is right, and making sure that I love Elliott and he loves me before I even think about taking that big step with him.

So there. I came out and said that I'm a virgin. For all of you jerks that say that I'm not a virgin, and had sex last year with a certain someone who plays basketball, you're wrong. I'm tired of hearing things about me that aren't true, and its time to set the record straight. You clearly don't know me as a friend or even a person, so just keep your rumors to yourself. [<3]

Song of the Day -- I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For - U2

Long day, don't really feel like saying too much other than this song is good.. I know I have my awesome 4 followers but anyone feel free to comment [<3]>

PS.. Wow awesome I just realized there's Spanish (or whatever language) subtitles at the bottom. Oh well.

Song of the Day -- True to Me

I've loved this song ever since I heard it for the first time about a few months ago. I'm sure it's pretty old but it never gets old. If you want to see the lyrics, go to this video on YouTube or simply search it on Google. I'm always a sucker for a love story written in songs, and this is cute and different. I love how Metro Station mixes in sexual references into their lyrics, it really spices it up a bit. Metro Station has wicked beats and different sounds going in every song, none of them sound the same. This song always puts me in a good mood, same goes for most Metro Station songs. Anyone feel the same?

Song of the Day -- Crash Into Me

One of the best songs I've heard, but not in a long time. This song speaks to me, and every time I listen to it it drags me in that much deeper. Something about the rhythm, tone and his voice keeps my attention. Not to mention the lyrics. The song touches me because I can relate to it. I hate to admit it to the whole world ((or to the 6 people that have ever read this blog)) that unfortunately I'm falling head of heels for my guy..

I say unfortunately because I don't know if I want to.. When it comes to relationships I'm always a little hesitant because I've been screwed over one too many times. I'm always afraid a guy will walk out on me, just as I start to really care for him. I know there are plenty of girls out there that are in the same boat. The only reason I hesitate with Elliott is because we aren't officially dating, as I said in an earlier post. I don't understand his reasoning for us not being official, and that scares me a little. I don't want to be a girl on the side, I want to be with him. But anyway, enough of the mushy stuff.

This song is really great because it isn't like other love songs. The different instruments and how they are played really grab my attention, and I love it. The singers voice is amazing too. I think what makes me love this song the most is the lyrics, because they are amazing. I don't know if this was professionally written or if it was by the guys in the band, but man I love them. I'm truly amazed by the lyrics of a lot of songs today, and how they word things. I don't think I could ever write lyrics to songs, because first of all I can't rhyme and the things I would say would sounds stupid. I can't even explain how some songs' lyrics make me go crazy because they are so awesome. This is definitely one of these songs.... <3

Change Is Coming

As hopefully most of you know, Barack Obama is now our first african-american president. I probably should've written about him closer to the election and inaguration, but I guess I kind of put it out of my mind.

When the inaguration was taking place, I was at school. I really wish I would've been able to see what was happening in Washington the whole day, because this event went down in history. Luckly, when Obama and Biden were about to take office, I was in my government class. I have government with Coach White, one of the best teachers I've had. I'm not sure what makes him a good teacher, but I'm able to stay focused and actually learn for the whole class period because he makes it so interesting. Anyways, he's obviously big into politics, and said we were going to watch as much of the inagural process as we could. We watched CNN I think it was, and we saw different views of the millions of people in Washington D.C.. It was amazing to see America come together like we did that day to witness such a life changing event in our history. We watched the prayer take place, WHICH I HATE, Aretha Franklin sing, and the orchestra thing play the song they composed for this event. (I hated the prayer because it's CLEARLY a violation of church and state, which Coach White reminded us about 4 times during the inaguration). I thought the songs were great, and they made the experience that much better.

We got to see Biden and Obama be sworn in, which was cool. I knew right as Obama messed up the words that he was going to get a lot of greif for it, but hey if I was up there in front of that many people I'm sure I would mess up a couple words =] We also got the chance to see Obama's inagural address or whatever it was called, which was amazing. As he started his speech I immediately got goosebumps and the chills. I thought the speech was very well written, and he delivered it with great success. I don't think I would've changed anything about it.

During the election, I was for McCain. I didn't like Obama's ideals at first, but now I've changed my mind. I think Obama has a good head on his shoulders, and knows what he wants to accomplish during his presidency. Now, its just a matter of whether or not he follows through with those ideals. For all of you who did not support Obama during the election, and are still against him now, you need to wake up. Clearly McCain didn't win. Obama is now the president, and there's nothing to do about it. It's time to stop crabbing about the election, and get used to the fact that yes, we do have an Democratic African-American president, and yes he's here for 4 years. I'm sticking with the classic saying, "If you can't beat 'em, join 'em." And you should too.