Song of the Day -- Go Hard Or Go Home

Its game time now. Basketball season is almost over, and hopefully we make it to state this year! Today is the last game of the season, and we play Dubuque Wahlert. The sophmores are doing well this year, and so are ours, so I have a feeling it'll be a really good game. I can't believe the season is almost over, because it feels like it just started. I feel like it's been a really great season to end on, it being my senior year and all. I've been to as many games as I could make it to, and they've all been so fun. Hopefully there's more to come [<3]

Song of the Day -- Summer Sunshine

I'm starting to think winter should be done right abouuttt... Now. I'm getting sick of all this nasty snow and slush all over, getting my car all dirty. Even though this song is pretty old, I heard it for the first time during the summer a couple years ago. This and other songs remind me of the warm summer nights, hanging out with my friends and just having a good time. I'm a senior this year, so I'm going to have a longer summer than years before. Before I go away to college, I want to have the summer of a lifetime. I want to hang out with my friends and boyfriend, and create memories that'll last forever. There's obviously no gurantees to that, but I'm pretty sure it'll happen.

The past summers I have are probably some of the most memorable moments in my life. Even though some of the moments aren't good ones, I still remember so much of what has happened the past few years. This summer will be great too. I've made new friends, actually have a boyfriend to spend time with, and I have my full license (long story). I'm hoping my parents will let up on the rules a little bit this summer, since it'll be my last one in high school. One of my favorite things to do in summer is lay on my driveway at night and look at all the stars. My house is perfect for this because we live out in the country, sort of. I sit out there and think about a lot of things.. Sometimes I think about if there are other people somewhere in the world looking at the same stars I am. There's so many different worlds and people out there that I don't know about, and it's crazy to think about what all I'm missing out on.

I think I do some of my deepest thinking in the summer too. I always reflect on the past year, and think about what is coming in the future. This summer I'll have a lot to think about, with college coming up. It's going to be hard to leave my friends, most of who are staying here in CR. It's also going to be a tough decision figuring out what Elliott and I are going to do. I've been avoiding as much as I can, but sooner or later we are going to have to sit down and talk about what we are going to do about our relationship in the future. As much as I hate to think about it, I'm going to be 2 hours away at college while he's here still in high school. We're going to have to think about if we can stick together, and work through this long distance relationship, and know we can trust each other. If we can't we're going to have to split up, knowing that our decision is for the best. Lately we've been hinting at the subject, and I think we are probably going to salvage our relationship and stand the distance. Although this can change over the next few months, I'm hoping it doesn't. This summer will be interesting. [<3]

Song of the Day -- Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day everyone =] Well a day late I guess.. For once I actually have a boyfriend on Valentines Day, which is nice for a change. Valentine's Day is a whole day to express your love for your significant other, and I love it!

This Valentine's Day, Elliott and I went out to dinner with my friend and her boyfriend to Elmcrest, which was a lot of fun. We got all dressed up lookin all cute and had a fancy quiet dinner. After that, we went to the move He's Just Not That Into You (chick flick I know). Anndd after that we split off and did our own thing. It was a lot of fun to get out for once, rather than being stuck inside watching a movie like we usually do. So.. We went out, but we.. still saw a movie? Hmm not much change. Oh well. You get the point. It's nice to have a night focused on a relationship, and hopefully cherishing that relationship you have.

And for those that don't have a significant other... Valentine's Day usually sucks. Well it did for me in past years, so I'm guessing it's still the same. It's basically a day to celebrate how alone you are and how lame single life is, and while couples go out together you're at home by yourself eating a pint of Ben & Jerry's while watching The Notebook with your dog. For all of you in this situation, love will come to you someday =]

Happy Valentine's Day everyone [<3]

Why Blog?

So what's up with this blogging thing? Why do we blog in the first place? Well first of all, I kind of have to. At first I didn't like to blog. I thought it was pointless and stupid, and I always put it off and thought I would do it later. I never did. But lately I've started to actually like blogging, and expressing my 'writing' over the internet.

So why do I like to blog? One, I get to type out my happiness, frustration, sadness, or whatever emotion I'm experiencing that day, through it. I know I'm no famous person, and have a million people visit my page routinely, and I'm okay with that. At this point, I don't care if people like, or even read what I have to say, I'm just putting it out there for my own purposes. For example, if you are told a really really big secret, and you aren't supposed to tell someone, you get this growing anxiousness in the pit of your stomach. You have to tell someone. Telling someone this secret, is almost like me telling, well no one, how I feel. I'll be honest and say that no one is going to want to sit down with me and listen to everything that happened to me that day, and why I am feeling the way I am. Of course I don't do this on my blog, but it's a way for me to cope with how I am feeling. Blogging my feelings is like a big sigh of relief some days.

Another reason I blog is to share stories and personal experiences. I know many don't read my blog, and I think that is why I feel so comfortable showing my feelings and sharing experiences in my posts. A way I show my feelings is through some stories I tell on my posts, and now recently, through my songs I choose for Song of the Day. I'm not saying I'm Mother Goose and I'm telling ridiculous stories with hidden morals in them, hoping that people follow in my footsteps. No way. I don't expect people to listen or like what I have to say, and the stories that I share, but I enjoy doing it.

Which brings me to my last reason why I blog. I do it, because I want to. I like to. It makes me happy knowing that my thoughts and my feelings are out there, for everyone to see. Maybe a post of mine could help someone through a hard time, or even just make their day a little bit better, knowing they aren't the only one going through something they may be experiencing. I think it's so cool that I have my own website, completely mine. I didn't have anyone else help me, I did everything on my own. It's almost like a self-esteem booster or something. On my blog, I can talk to anyone. It just amazes me that this one website can be seen all over the world. There's no boundaries, (kind of) and no one is really telling me what to say, or what to think. Not everyone has their own website where they can talk to the world. I think that's just about the coolest thing ever.

Song of the Day -- Practice Makes Perfect

Another Cute Is What We Aim For song.. The video is from YouTube, but the song title on the video is wrong.. It's Practice Makes Perfect. Once again, another great song produced from the Rotation album released in 2008. Hope you enjoy [<3]

Song of the Day -- Time

One of the best songs I've heard in a long time. Cute Is What We Aim For is one of my favorite bands, because of the lyrics and diversity in each of their songs. I said in one of my first posts on this blog that CIWWAF shows a whole new side of their band with this new CD, Rotation. Each of the songs are very different, including this one. I was disappointed at first when I was flipping through their songs when I first got the CD, hoping for a slower song. Time is the last song on the CD, and when I heard it, I immediately fell in love.

I'd definitely recommend this CD to anyone who doesn't generally like main-stream bands, and is always looking for new sound. Check them out on MySpace. [<3]

WPA

Its only a matter of time before the girls of Kennedy High School start going crazy thinking about WPA. For all of you that don't know what this is, WPA stands for Women Pay All. It's a dance. WPA is coming up in the beginning of March, and the girls have to ask the guys this time. We also pay for the tickets, the dinner, and the pictures. At the rate this is going, I need to start saving my money now.

At the beginning of the year, before I had even met Elliott, I came up with this brilliant idea of how I wanted to ask my date to WPA. I had no idea who I wanted to ask, but it would be perfect if he happened to play basketball. When I started dating Elliott, this idea became perfect because basketball is his life. So I went out and bought a mini basketball, some rhinestones, and some glue. My plan was to write WPA? in big letters in rhinestones on the ball, and somehow surprise him with it. About a week ago, I started putting my plan together. I made the ball perfectly, and I couldn't wait to give it to him. I decided I was going to give it to his 4th hour teacher, and somehow have his teacher surprise him with it in the middle of class. I thought there was no point in officially asking him, because I assumed we were going together anyway, but my plan was so awesome I couldn't pass it up. So I planned to give the ball to him this past Tuesday. Everything went perfect, and he told me he loved the ball and the idea was really great. But he didn't respond to my question. I let it slide, hoping maybe he would somehow surprise me with a "yes" later in the day.

School got out, and still no response. I was pretty impatient, so I asked him if he was gonna respond. He said he didn't know what to do, because he didn't like dances. He says he's an awkward dancer, and doesn't want to embarrass him or myself. Elliott stands at a whopping 6'6'', so saying he's awkward may not be an exaggeration. He's a basketball player, so he's not that awkward, but I still can't picture him dancing. I was shocked by his response. How could he be so selfish?! This is my dance, and it's my last WPA because I'm a senior. I do everything for him ((that's a whole other story)) and he can't sacrifice one night to make me happy.. I started to get upset. He explained why he was hesitating, and asked me if I could teach him to dance. I agreed, hoping maybe teaching him would encourage him to come to WPA with me.

So tomorrow will be our dance lesson day. After the Varsity basketball game, Elliott will come over and I'll attempt to teach him to dance. I'm not a fantastic dancer myself, but I'll have to teach him what I know. I'm kind of nervous because I don't know how to teach a guy to dance. This would be a lot easier if I was trying to teach a girl. I'm also really hoping this convinces him to go, because I don't want to fight about it.

I'll update on how it goes later [<3]>