Spring Break 09!

So finally the time has come. This is the last week of school before spring break. It's my last spring break of my high school career, and for once I'm actually going somewhere (I think). Usually every spring break I stay at home doing nothing, while a lot of my friends go off to Cancun or Hawaii for a warm getaway. Well I can't brag; I'm not really going anywhere warm.

If I do go somewhere, it would be to the Mall of America with a few friends. My friend Andriana's mom would drive us, because none of our parents would let 4 girls drive up to Minnesota by ourselves. I'm also going with Kate and Jenny. I'm so excited! The only thing stopping me is work. I'm scheduled to work on Saturday and Sunday, and we would leave for Minn on Saturday. I'm trying to work that all out now, and I'm pretty confident to say that it'll all work out.

When//if I go, I really want to hunt around for a prom dress. It will give us 4 a chance to look around for dresses, in hopes of finding one that hopefully no one else will get. In CR, there aren't many dress shops. If I don't find one in Minnesota, I'll probably order one offline, or go to another city or something. Prom is coming up in less than 2 months, and so I'm kind of crunched for time. It's time for me to start thinking about who I'm going to ask (Elliott) and how I'm going to ask him. Because to be honest, if I don't go with Elliott, I'll probably be dateless. Guys never ask me to dances, and I'm afraid it'll be that way for prom too if Elliott says no. So much to worry about, so little time. [<3]

All The Rules Change

This is the final term of my high school career. It's basically the last term of the easiest part of my life. From now on, everything will be harder. The future will bring on new a greater resposibilities, and I'm scared shitless. I'm excited to be done, and finally move on with my life, but there's always that part of me that will want to stay home. I don't wanna leave my home, where my parents watch over me and basically care to my every need. I don't have to do my own laundry (most of the time), I don't have to pay bills, I don't have to worry about if we have enough food. Any of that. But soon enough, I will have to start worrying about that.

My Economics teacher Mr. Grady, gave us a big speech during our first day of class. He stressed how important his class was, and how it will help us in the future. The main point he stressed was, all the rules change. After high school, all of the rules change. No one is going to be along side us guiding us through college and during our job. All of the responsibility to make it through school, up to this point, was on the shoulders of our teachers. In college and in the work force, that all changes. The responsibility is on us now. No one cares if we go to class, teachers won't care if you fail. You're paying for your college tuition, so if you don't go to class, that's wasted money out of your pocket. It's kind of mind boggling if you think about it, because at this point, we're adults now.

I thought at first, it can't be that big of a change. We're just moving on to a different level of education. Yes, that is true, but it's to a whole new degree. We have more freedom in college, more freedom that we can choose what we do with. Either we can spend our freedom badly, by partying every night and being dumb. Or we can do what is expected, and do our homework and studies first. I plan to hopefully do a little of both. Of course my number one priority will be school, and if I do have some free time, I'd like to have some fun once and a while.

College will be a hard time, and it will be hard for me to get used to at first. But overall I think it'll be fun and a great experience for me, and everyone else. It's what gets us to the next level -- the rest of our lives. College helps build our future, and it can be fun. I'm anxious to see how it all pans out [<3]

Song of the Day -- Go Hard Or Go Home

Its game time now. Basketball season is almost over, and hopefully we make it to state this year! Today is the last game of the season, and we play Dubuque Wahlert. The sophmores are doing well this year, and so are ours, so I have a feeling it'll be a really good game. I can't believe the season is almost over, because it feels like it just started. I feel like it's been a really great season to end on, it being my senior year and all. I've been to as many games as I could make it to, and they've all been so fun. Hopefully there's more to come [<3]

Song of the Day -- Summer Sunshine

I'm starting to think winter should be done right abouuttt... Now. I'm getting sick of all this nasty snow and slush all over, getting my car all dirty. Even though this song is pretty old, I heard it for the first time during the summer a couple years ago. This and other songs remind me of the warm summer nights, hanging out with my friends and just having a good time. I'm a senior this year, so I'm going to have a longer summer than years before. Before I go away to college, I want to have the summer of a lifetime. I want to hang out with my friends and boyfriend, and create memories that'll last forever. There's obviously no gurantees to that, but I'm pretty sure it'll happen.

The past summers I have are probably some of the most memorable moments in my life. Even though some of the moments aren't good ones, I still remember so much of what has happened the past few years. This summer will be great too. I've made new friends, actually have a boyfriend to spend time with, and I have my full license (long story). I'm hoping my parents will let up on the rules a little bit this summer, since it'll be my last one in high school. One of my favorite things to do in summer is lay on my driveway at night and look at all the stars. My house is perfect for this because we live out in the country, sort of. I sit out there and think about a lot of things.. Sometimes I think about if there are other people somewhere in the world looking at the same stars I am. There's so many different worlds and people out there that I don't know about, and it's crazy to think about what all I'm missing out on.

I think I do some of my deepest thinking in the summer too. I always reflect on the past year, and think about what is coming in the future. This summer I'll have a lot to think about, with college coming up. It's going to be hard to leave my friends, most of who are staying here in CR. It's also going to be a tough decision figuring out what Elliott and I are going to do. I've been avoiding as much as I can, but sooner or later we are going to have to sit down and talk about what we are going to do about our relationship in the future. As much as I hate to think about it, I'm going to be 2 hours away at college while he's here still in high school. We're going to have to think about if we can stick together, and work through this long distance relationship, and know we can trust each other. If we can't we're going to have to split up, knowing that our decision is for the best. Lately we've been hinting at the subject, and I think we are probably going to salvage our relationship and stand the distance. Although this can change over the next few months, I'm hoping it doesn't. This summer will be interesting. [<3]

Song of the Day -- Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day everyone =] Well a day late I guess.. For once I actually have a boyfriend on Valentines Day, which is nice for a change. Valentine's Day is a whole day to express your love for your significant other, and I love it!

This Valentine's Day, Elliott and I went out to dinner with my friend and her boyfriend to Elmcrest, which was a lot of fun. We got all dressed up lookin all cute and had a fancy quiet dinner. After that, we went to the move He's Just Not That Into You (chick flick I know). Anndd after that we split off and did our own thing. It was a lot of fun to get out for once, rather than being stuck inside watching a movie like we usually do. So.. We went out, but we.. still saw a movie? Hmm not much change. Oh well. You get the point. It's nice to have a night focused on a relationship, and hopefully cherishing that relationship you have.

And for those that don't have a significant other... Valentine's Day usually sucks. Well it did for me in past years, so I'm guessing it's still the same. It's basically a day to celebrate how alone you are and how lame single life is, and while couples go out together you're at home by yourself eating a pint of Ben & Jerry's while watching The Notebook with your dog. For all of you in this situation, love will come to you someday =]

Happy Valentine's Day everyone [<3]

Why Blog?

So what's up with this blogging thing? Why do we blog in the first place? Well first of all, I kind of have to. At first I didn't like to blog. I thought it was pointless and stupid, and I always put it off and thought I would do it later. I never did. But lately I've started to actually like blogging, and expressing my 'writing' over the internet.

So why do I like to blog? One, I get to type out my happiness, frustration, sadness, or whatever emotion I'm experiencing that day, through it. I know I'm no famous person, and have a million people visit my page routinely, and I'm okay with that. At this point, I don't care if people like, or even read what I have to say, I'm just putting it out there for my own purposes. For example, if you are told a really really big secret, and you aren't supposed to tell someone, you get this growing anxiousness in the pit of your stomach. You have to tell someone. Telling someone this secret, is almost like me telling, well no one, how I feel. I'll be honest and say that no one is going to want to sit down with me and listen to everything that happened to me that day, and why I am feeling the way I am. Of course I don't do this on my blog, but it's a way for me to cope with how I am feeling. Blogging my feelings is like a big sigh of relief some days.

Another reason I blog is to share stories and personal experiences. I know many don't read my blog, and I think that is why I feel so comfortable showing my feelings and sharing experiences in my posts. A way I show my feelings is through some stories I tell on my posts, and now recently, through my songs I choose for Song of the Day. I'm not saying I'm Mother Goose and I'm telling ridiculous stories with hidden morals in them, hoping that people follow in my footsteps. No way. I don't expect people to listen or like what I have to say, and the stories that I share, but I enjoy doing it.

Which brings me to my last reason why I blog. I do it, because I want to. I like to. It makes me happy knowing that my thoughts and my feelings are out there, for everyone to see. Maybe a post of mine could help someone through a hard time, or even just make their day a little bit better, knowing they aren't the only one going through something they may be experiencing. I think it's so cool that I have my own website, completely mine. I didn't have anyone else help me, I did everything on my own. It's almost like a self-esteem booster or something. On my blog, I can talk to anyone. It just amazes me that this one website can be seen all over the world. There's no boundaries, (kind of) and no one is really telling me what to say, or what to think. Not everyone has their own website where they can talk to the world. I think that's just about the coolest thing ever.

Song of the Day -- Practice Makes Perfect

Another Cute Is What We Aim For song.. The video is from YouTube, but the song title on the video is wrong.. It's Practice Makes Perfect. Once again, another great song produced from the Rotation album released in 2008. Hope you enjoy [<3]